I love The Young and the Restless. I've watched this soap opera since I was a little girl. I can remember watching it with my mom before I was even old enough to go to school. In general, I think that soaps are cheesy and just down right stupid. But in my mind The Young and The Restless is different. I have even convinced myself that is looks different. Seriously. When I'm channel surfing and stumble across any other soap opera, I stop and ask myself why anyone would watch that show because it just looks cheap. I've decided that all soap operas, except The Young and The Restless, use some sort of special generic soap opera film. But the Y&R uses high quality filming products like the evening sitcoms use. Yep, that's what I tell myself. I don't even know if it's true in any place other than in my mind (that the Y&R looks different). But you know what they say, if you tell yourself something over and over enough times, you'll begin to believe it regardless of whether or not it's actually fact.

Anyway...I DVR The Young and The Restless everyday even though I'm at home when it comes on. But I like to be able to fast forward through the commercials and any parts that I'm just not interested in. Plus, being able to watch it on demand gives me something to do when I'm feeding the baby. Although I love to sit and gaze into his sweet little eyes as he suckles greedily at my breast, I must admit that it sometimes gets boring or I get a cramp in my neck. I just wonder if little Micah will grow up to watch my little show as well. I hope not, it's such a nasty habit, soap operas are. I sometimes find myself going through withdraw when I've not watched the happenings of Genoa City for more than a week. Then I go on a binge and stare at the television for hours upon countless hours as Jason checks on me periodically asking how I can possibly still be watching such garbage. But it's not garbage, these are my childhood friends!! I grew up with many of the characters. (Even though many went away to boarding school practically as infants and came back sometimes a soon as a year later as adults with children of their own.) I get defensive when he criticizes my choice of television enjoyment. At least I'm not watching ape-like men battle uber-snakes and crocodiles on that stupid sci-fi channel.

Overjoyed!!!

The baby is going to wake up any time now so I'll need to be quick. Forgive me now for typos, I'm not going check this over closely.

Micah Allen was born on April 3, 2008 at exactly 4pm. He weighed 6lbs and 3oz. and measured 19in. long. He's got a head FULL of hair and I'd say is a pretty good mix of mommy and daddy. My labor actually wasn't too bad. From what I'm told, it was a "textbook birth". Jason said that he just knows I'm going to want to do this again real soon because it was just far too easy. He's probably right!

I never knew I could love my husband anymore than I already did before the baby was born. I look at that little baby every day and thank God for putting Jason into my life because without him, Micah would not be. And I never knew I could love on this level. It's truly a beautiful and amazing phenomenon...this love I feel for my family.

In my mind I've been a mom for several years...we've always had Dev. But this is different. This is unexplainable. This is a miracle. So far, several times a day, I just hold Micah and cry because I don't have the ability to express my joy any other way. He's not even a week old yet and I can't imagine my life any other way. I fall in love with Jason all over again each time gaze into the baby's eyes and see my husband's features. This is the good life!



P.S. I must say...I'm really missing my cuddle time with Scrappy Doo. I think that once things get settled in the weeks to come, Scrappy has nothing to worry about. He's a bit jealous but overall handling the new addition quite well :)